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Kaya is dying of cancer. This all happened in 2 weeks from noticing anything was wrong. I am devastated. I don’t want her to go. She is uncomfortable at best.
![Lazy Kaya - 2008 Lazy Kaya 2008](http://www.onmybeat.net/photos/2009/kaya/lazy_Kaya_2008.jpg)
I wonder when if ever I will learn to deal gracefully with loss, cuz right now i am crying and wanting to blame. And there isn’t much I can do to make her more comfortable.
![Kaya -2009 Kaya 2009](http://www.onmybeat.net/photos/2009/kaya/kaya_1.jpg)
This just totally sucks.
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